The first practical step is keen observation.
You are going to observe. Observe how you are standing, how you are talking. Observe your emotions, observe your thoughts, observe your dreams, your hallucinations, daydreams, wishes, desires, hatreds, anger, jealousy, and revenge. Observe then because observation is like a tractor that expands the field of your existence. Observe. Everytime you do a real observation, you expand your consciousness a little more.
Observe yourself. Observe yourself physically, emotionally, mentally. Observe how and why you are lying. It is so interesting. When you lie, snap a picture at that moment and watch the movie. "Why did this man lie that way? Look at his face, look at his nose! Look how silly he was smiling. Look at his mind. Look at his craziness." Watch it!
Why were you jealous? Why were you afraid to enter this room? What caused that fear?
Observation is not to know how fat or lean people are.
Observe yourself. What were your reactions and responses? Ask, "Why was I pretending, imitating? Why was I not speaking the truth, the facts? What was the matter with me? Who is influencing me?
The field of observation eventually takes you out of the mud in which you have been living for five thousand years.
What are you doing when not observing yourself? You are losing yourself. The more you observe you observe yourself, the more you exist. Your failure is the result of your lack of observation.
Who or what is controlling you? As long as you are controlled inside and outside, you are not a free person. You are a football everyone is kicking for his own interest. No matter if it is your nation, your father, your mother, your teacher---whatever it is, you are controlled and "you" do not exist. You do exist only when you have control of yourself.
Free yourself from your controllers.
- Torkom Saraydarian (Consciousness - Part I)
Great advice, thank you.
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